countdown begin

Sedar tak sedar it has been 1 week I've been wearing this PB..and...my waist lost 3cm already..small amount for me to be proud but still at least I've seen the result...anxiously waiting for more results in the future..

till then~..

my love-hate relationship

i just thought..why not i start fresh..end of year is coming soon..so might as well i start over again..

those who know me knew my love-hate relationship with my weight..but this time around my weight flaunt like hell..tak de insurance coverage punyer this time...so many things i took but it wont last long..so this is kindda of other option that i got after much pursuing my Puan Sri and her approval of coz to purchase this corset by Premium Beautiful..

So then I tot..y not i capture it so that i can monitor my progress whilst sharing with others..

And the journey goes...received the item yesterday night and wear it only for 3 hours..as first i tot..well this might be like the others but I turn out to be wrong..( or maybe it changes my psychology)..good news for me thou just only for that few hours, it help me to clear out the rubbish inside my perut easily (not that i'm having problem on that part..just that it smooths out easily..hahahha)..

So I tot..maybe jugak because I have teh tarik kurang manis last night..hahahhaa..then again..today..I wore it to office..the whole day...took my breakfast on my way to the office..then at 10am..I already mengigil kelaparan...I was like..takkan kot..takkan pakai mende nie kasi aku lapar..tak kurus ah cam nie..so I tot maybe I minum coffee kot..but tak de pun seblom nie...then I took my lunch around 12-1 something..half an hour later..gile aku mengigil lapar balik...

I was like..serious shit takkan ashik lapar je..so I consult la my biz partner(..bole ke panggil cam nie..hahaha)..ye la..was curious why aku lapar je..nyhow..she said might be cuz of the fat burning process making me cepat lapar...then balik keje tadi 1 noticeble thing is that my cellulite nampak lesser...(facts: i do have cellulite..i'm fat..ok..)..

ok..that's about it for today my progress..hoping to see more soon..

years to come

It's whole new year again..n nothing to brag about..i hate new year apart from being a year older...new year resolution..none..except on continuing last year wishlist..

left alone by myself during new year...thanks a lot for making my life miserable..i hate u...

not that i even care on celebrating it..it's just the feeling of loneliness that i hate..not that i didn't try to do anything on that day..in which i haven't actually....i did nothing except for cooking myself dinner..n followed by series of movies to which i fall asleep to it....stupid boring me...

and the day of the new year..which is like yesterday didn't even sparks my life..not even a tiny weeny bits...it's just making my life more and more miserable..it's like I don't want to believe in anything and anybody..people just make me crazy....i wish u could just leave me alone and never even bother about me..as if i'm never born..i'll be glad if u treat me that way..so that u wont make my life more miserable than it is now..don't even pretend that u care cause i know that u never did....n how i wish u never did..u have some other child to think about..so leave me alone and never ever bother about me..i hate u..i hate u for bringing me to life..i wish i was never born..then u'll live happily ever after..

u'll never blessed me with anything so is there any other reason why i should be living now...none..no reason whatsoever.. i will not pretend anymore..if you are not happy with what i am today..just leave me alone..disgrace me if u want..i don't care..go find another good daughter for all I care..cause i just don't freaking care anymore...u make my life freaking miserable..and don't be sorry if u don't see me long enough in this world..u'll be glad about it..and please go and thank god for banishing me from your life..cause that will be my wish for this year..

happy new year..n God bless u...