years to come

It's whole new year again..n nothing to brag about..i hate new year apart from being a year older...new year resolution..none..except on continuing last year wishlist..

left alone by myself during new year...thanks a lot for making my life miserable..i hate u...

not that i even care on celebrating it..it's just the feeling of loneliness that i hate..not that i didn't try to do anything on that day..in which i haven't actually....i did nothing except for cooking myself dinner..n followed by series of movies to which i fall asleep to it....stupid boring me...

and the day of the new year..which is like yesterday didn't even sparks my life..not even a tiny weeny bits...it's just making my life more and more miserable..it's like I don't want to believe in anything and anybody..people just make me crazy....i wish u could just leave me alone and never even bother about me..as if i'm never born..i'll be glad if u treat me that way..so that u wont make my life more miserable than it is now..don't even pretend that u care cause i know that u never did....n how i wish u never did..u have some other child to think about..so leave me alone and never ever bother about me..i hate u..i hate u for bringing me to life..i wish i was never born..then u'll live happily ever after..

u'll never blessed me with anything so is there any other reason why i should be living now...none..no reason whatsoever.. i will not pretend anymore..if you are not happy with what i am today..just leave me alone..disgrace me if u want..i don't care..go find another good daughter for all I care..cause i just don't freaking care anymore...u make my life freaking miserable..and don't be sorry if u don't see me long enough in this world..u'll be glad about it..and please go and thank god for banishing me from your life..cause that will be my wish for this year..

happy new year..n God bless u...